Thoughts...

Chilled. Calm. Collected. Tired. Stressed. Worry. All these thoughts went rapidly through my mind, as i sat in my car, listening to my mp3s loaded onto my K700i. Howie Day's Collide is still one song that makes me jus wanna sit there, and stare out at the dark blue sky.... no clouds, no stars, it's a clear night.

Am i headed for another burnout? I don't think so. The adrenaline rushes i get from planning, to rolling, to successfully implementing projects feels good. My skin should improve its radiance, but alas, it got worse. Perhaps i really need more sleep. I've been good, i haven't been drinking, but i can't get to sleep. The weight & burden of projects is keeping my nrg really low. Each time i get stressed out, i either power-nap or i just lie awake wondering the logic behind the wiring and the flow of diagram. Do i always think about my work?

Went to Kuala Lumpur today, with my client, to help troubleshoot his equipment. Of cos, being a lil' daft, i managed to resolve it quite slowly. We came back the very day. yes, it was tiring, but it feels good to be away from office, for a change, and from running to and fro a couple of appointments a day. i think the US weather suits my skin a lil' way better.

Should i stay or should i go....?
*hums Should I Stay by Dreamz FM ....*
Anyone remembers this song from Channel 5's Chemistry. Yep, i love the song

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about...