Thursday, October 22, 2009

We need to talk

As with all friends, and family, we need to communicate. And talking is, in my opinion, the best way to communicate. Sure there's always bonding over food, seriously crazy bonding over excessive amount of beer. For others, there's team sports or even individualistic sports like swimming, and training together in packs. But there's always talk.

I do think my gift and downfall is my ability to talk. The gift of the gab has opened opportunities and doors to work, and my social life. That gift is also my downfall, when i talk too much, or react too fast without thinking.

Of late, i am cornered to think what is right, and what is wrong. Perhaps my mom is right. The world is round, and sometimes it's better not to say anything cos it might come back to you. Yet on the other hand, i am so compelled by my own emotions to take charge of the situation.

So i turned to running and swimming, hoping a little workout would kill my angst and thoughts. I figure if i am still thinking about the next day, i probably should act on it. Sometimes, i wonder if it's right to act on it. When i acted on it, i realized my emotions took hold of me. I am sure i am not regretting it. I only meant well, and looking out for the ones i care for. I choose not to speak, only when i do not know where to go, and when i figure it's time to let you go.

Perhaps only one song can sum up what i want to say :

"Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
How To Save A Life --- The Fray

Monday, October 12, 2009

under the sea...

Barely a month or two ago, i have subconsciously made up my mind that i won't take up diving. The time and money committed to such a leisurely sport would surely take a toll on my wallet.

Fast forward to one day of mayhem hanging around, i thought "oh, why not?"
One week of mulling whether to do it... interrupted by fears earthquakes and aftershocks, and of course, tidal waves. One week of class and pool lessons. I am open water certified!

That weekend spent doing open water dives to ensure i know how to safeguard my own ass as well as my buddy's has made me embrace the sea even more. I a
m surprised to find clear waters just off of Pulau Dayang, off Mersing, Malaysia. The travelling there is tiring, accommodations were sparse, not that i mind. Not one bit at all. It was about loving the water, and taking in sights underwater.

Those images underwater would be etched in my memory. I remember, during a dive my instructor pointed at a fish and signal a sign for eating. So after that, i asked "so pomfret? you said can eat...". He shook his head and decided i'm always hungry and always sleepy. But you know what? It's meant to be a leisure sport. However, you need to be physically fit all the time to be able to withstand days of diving and the multiple dives it involves. It's an experience i think more people should partake in.

"under the sea under the sea,
down here it's better,
down where it's better,
take it from me"

Monday, October 05, 2009

Of September

I am reluctant to admit how fast every September always seem to fly by, despite being event packed. I realized now, how soon i am to running yet another marathon, it's been almost a year. I also realized how little i have seen my own training mates. It was nice to have receive a message or two from the usual training mates. :)

I posted a question on facebook asking, the friends i'm linked with, what they have done all September and how did they end it. I can't quite put down in words what happened in September.

All i know is October's here, and we gotta keep it moving.