Facing life's ups and downs

Since the beginning of 2011, i told myself "time to get some fitness back". So far, the plan sort of worked. I've been going at Macritchie Trails on weekend, and try to rejoin the Monday Tri Swim. The Monday Tri Swim crowd has always been "encouraging" in their back-to-squad-swim-welcome, with words like "wah can buy 4D", or "guest appearance?". Somehow, the words don't get to me or bother as much. I pretty much have subscribed to "let's just have some fun, who cares if i am slow?". I can't go through 4km jogging through the trails without huffing and puffing my lungs out. Did i expect this? Well, yes and no. I was hoping my muscle memory would kick in, but i didn't expect to fall back that far of my fitness. That's just one of many life's ups and downs.

Work has been bogging me down. I toyed around with expansion ideas. Part of my Pinky & the Brain's idea of taking over the world. However, i'm faced with the finance portion, and the handling of the bonus-Chinese New Year syndrome of leaving staff. That, i sum it as part of life's ups and downs. With my increasing time spent at work, the more i see how tough running or even micro managing can be. I sleep early post work by 11pm, waking up at 3am to watch some tv due to insomnia or thinking about work.

Life throws curveballs all the time. To battle it, it's about retaliation and resilience, and being able to keep calm under panic. To sleep and come up with a better idea. I often wondered about having the same financial security, as i did as a little kid. My dad was around just all of five years of my life, but he did tell me never to take things for granted, and that you got to work hard to get something you want, and to run with the wind once you catch that energy. Those are lessons i hold dearly, as he passed on some 25 years ago. I was blessed to live a good part of my life, with zero worries. And to face with potholes now, i felt i can do it cos what doesn't kill you only make you stronger. To feel all miserable about it is not going to bring back the same lifestyle; but to transfer negativity into a driving force might just change the road ahead of you.

And I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Have a good weekend.