Guess what? I met up with a guy... that i talked abt on my 12th Dec Blog. yes ... himmmm... Ryan. Hahaha, it's amazing how we managed to sit & talk like we talk on comp. it's so nice to meet him again and to hug him. I realized i do miss him and his surfer dude attitude. totally hilarious. We had coffee. Cos i suppose that's all we have time for. It's nice, warm, and jus so nice to sit by him. And to watch him tell me how materialistic and a bitch and a crazy woman i am. He is now officially with a Mrs Ryan. I'm shocked, didn't expect it so soon. But feel really really xtremely happy for you, dude. I asked when we'll meet again. his reply : don't know.

I seem to have lost a lot of friends through marriage & immigration. I suppose that's the trend when the age comes around. Everyone with their Mrs. I guess it's time to let them go, we can't always sit around, laugh and lug our arms around each other like die-hard buddies. We've grown. Time to get our groove onto other stuff : family, & Mrs & possibly Kids.

I've seem to tell all my male buddies that i would need a pagekid or two. Hahaha, and they kept joking that they aren't planning kids. I smiled and said "yea right... wait till the missus said so."

I was questioned these days about my choice of leaving the guy i considered my First love( serious relationship). I believe there's no turning back once decisions are made. I am not regretting my move. So smile, brace yourself for new things ahead. Afterall, you must have made the decision because of factors, right? I hope he's taking to it well. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just felt it would be better for us in the long run. I need to fall & learn to take things on my own. I need to be me. Don't worry. I'll be fine. I hope you will take care of yourself, and prepare for the world ahead of you. I know you're stressed, i know you're upset. It's temporary. Someone better will come along. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me who i am today.

To a New Year Ahead.... CHEERS EVERYONE! 2003 has been a pretty rough year. Cheers to a good life and a smashing new year...

Christmas has passed. It's been a week.

I think Holidays is always the time u think about the past, the love, everything. I had a friend tell me about her misery with love. It's sad. It's a "i love you, but i can't be with you" thing. It's a feeling that's hard to deny of its existence. perhaps time can heal the pain, perhaps time can make everything alright, i've heard a lot abt time being the greatest worker of all. how long should the time be before a couple comes to terms with reality? I really wonder... I can't really console her. I don't know what to say, where to start. I realized that many ard me are lucky in love ...Yet some are jus hiding behind their cheerful disposition. Is it all just a facade? Why can't ppl be more real?

The New Year is approaching. I seem to have a 101 things on my mind. it's so messed up. Work is really taking a toll on me. sighhhh... some ppl have all the luck. where's mine?

Resolutions for Year 2004... to be announced soon... AKAN DATANG !

Ok... the weekend has passed.
Mr. Eugene Heng, congrats and finally having found Mrs. Eugene Heng.

Now, all my friends will start swarming me with wedding invites, wedding receps, dinners... oh goodness. Sigh... am i bound to stay on the shelf? Being a singleton has its perks : freedom, men, freedom, men, freedom, men. Of course, being together as a couple has its perks : cuddling, love, cuddling, love.

Spending time at weddings... i came to realize ... actually being attached or with someone commited is a pretty good thing. Especially when weddings are so close to Christmas. it's perhaps one of the most sweetest & heart warming ... you are in awe of the whole aspect of it. a couple in love... and the nice warmth of holiday season.

Well... no charming guys to report about. hahaha... i had fun with a bunch of cheesey grown ups, which is really rather funny, cute, amusing...
Mebbe crazy friends are like that....

It's Friday yet again. WooHoo! Words can't describe how happy i am or truly is. It's amazing.

I came back from Thailand on Monday. Since then, it's been hectic at work.
The weekend in Thailand ... is truly amazing. Met with Dennis, Sanford, Boat... and the rest of Pin's family. It's been a year since my brother left us (dennis, sanford & me).... sometimes when i think of him, i can't help but feel down & depressed. I had a fun weekend, it was fun,... lying around, and talking to my brothers, who's been there for me through it all. They're the best.

Anywayz... i'm actually now chatting with a guy i used to like, when i was in secondary school. This guy is megawatt charming. i'm going to be his kid's godmother. Everytime i think of him, it brings a smile onto my face. Our story of Fate brought us to know each other is so amazing... it always brings a twinkle to my face. The good ol' memories. We've known each other ... for 8 years... ok, if you count knowing names, it's about 6 years... and we've been out only ONCE. yes, we don't have the privilege like others to have coffee or tea or dinner... like friends do. We only managed to go out ONCE. Still... it's memorable. One of those dates you'll never forget.

U live ... and you love. Sometimes, being friends is good enough. You don't have to be lovers. For all you know, you guys break up and don't talk to each other. Be content with being friends.

Alright... it's Thursday. I know... a lil' weird for me to post my blog. I'm leaving for Thailand tomorrow for the weekend. It's been a year since my "brother" passed away. A lil' sad, a lil' nostalgia about the entire string of events. I wonder how things will be like when i meet the rest of my "brothers" this year...

I went to sing karaoke with Wendy & Pris on Monday. yea, we went wacky, sang out of tune. I sang out of tune on purpose. Before i hear your "YEAH RIGHT", i really did, my throat felt horrid & dry. We had a fantastic & cheap dinner, no less.

Tuesday : hmmm... what did i do? nothing... i work OT. :( sigh...

Wednesday : ... ohhhhh, hmmm... ahhhhh, nothing again.

I came to realize my work week is very boring. In fact, ultra boring.
Oh well... a weekend in Thailand shld be pretty exciting. i really wish so...
we'll see...
watch out for my post... come Tuesday...