I was at Beijing last weekend... for work.
It was fun, new, exciting and of course, a brand new life experience. And... hmm, totally felt my weekend was worth it.
Went to the Great Wall. man it's awesome. really v. nice. I came to appreciate China. It ain't old fashioned anymore. The girls... some of their style really is nice. Singapore shld have colder weather for me to wear boots around... they look so funky. The guys... some of them r pretty cute, and they dun look like those "walking on the street and spitting" kinda people.

Today's Saturday. And i'm home blogging. Doesn't help things much at all.
I felt my Saturdays being wasted... yep, wonder why.
The feeling still sticks by me... even after so long.

I've been so busy, and tied with work. The last thing i wanna do is waste time. OH well... wot to do...

Hmmm... it's Sunday tomorrow, so hopefully more exciting things coming my way.
In the meanwhile... hang on... for a joyride ahead.

Three cheers to my most avid fan of my blogspot : Small Eric.
Dude, really surprised you still read. Oh well, i guess it's a form of light entertainment huh?

I'm going to Beijing for this coming weekend, the 18th to 21st March. Woohoo! Away from Singapore for a while. Alone Time. Me. Myself. I. This move prolly draws the stares of many. Yes, i am going myself for work. It's going to be fun. I hope. It's also a good time to sort out my thoughts and directions in life, and not be so reliant and unappreciative of everything or everyone around me.

I haven't been doing much for weekends. I spent friday nights either sleeping or out clubbing with girls. But clubbing happens once in a blue moon. With that note, the girls prolly go crazy with our incapability to control our drinks or our threshold for that matter. So there!

Just yesterday (Saturday), i feel like i have done nothing for Saturdays. I live for the weekends, but when it comes around, i feel like i'm doing nothing. the feeling will pass... i hope.

Alright... till my next blog. perhaps excitement in Beijing... hahaha, will update. Bye guys... and my readers.

Twas the night is young, but not young enuf.
Shitload of work to do.
how sad... and of cos, as usual, procrastinating me.....
ALWAYS LAST MINUTE.

I am so tired, with the amount of the work that is bogging me down. I seem to have 101 things to do : which can either equal out to better sales report, ... than .... hmmm...
Sales is slow, not that slow, but slow enough. it's a trend... but oh well... no choice.

I haven't blogged in weeks. Been so busy at work. I desperately need a break! Yes, a good nice break! away from work. yet i can't leave it down... calls are just streaming non-stop.

Only at 6: SILENCE ! I actually do appreciate my nights. It's nice, silent, not too many calls, unlike the morning.

Weekend is coming. I think i'm just going to stay in, rest, pack some clothes into bags to move house.

The emotions i'm going through now is just so .. undescribable (assuming my spelling has no error). It's sad, yet relief. The amt of pressure and rat-race eminent within a lil' cluster family is enuf to kill someone with lofty dreams to GET REAL~! Now, i get the chance to leave it all behind and be individual. Work for myself towards my own goals.

I know i'm a little slow in my blogging lately.
Blame it on work week.
And of course, my lazy-ness.

I had a pretty decent Valentine's Day, in case anyone's wondering. Went for a movie and duck rice. Yes, not your typical Flowers, Nice Dinner with a nice evening out. Sorry to disappoint my blog readers.

February seems to be whizzing by, really quickly.
And of course, the name William Hung is on everyone's mouth. Basically i feel he's a passing fad. He's funny, no question about it. Just that it's a passing trend. A walking comedy act, when he feels celebrated as a professional singing act. Can't blame anyone for having dreams, can we?

i spent most of this week, with barely enough sleep.
Why?
Cos i decided to spend my evenings ... attempting to finish watching the entire drama serial which will take about an hour per episode... and i finished 18 epi so far. :) i still resume work the next day and work till night as usual. I only started on Wednesday ... it's just so exciting... so days of our lives.

It's Saturday and i'm at work. Considering how no life it may be, i guess you trade it off, with achievements at work.

I saw tons of cars yesterday... and major show offs too. I guess if you don't have the skills, don't drive too fast and you may be branded as an IDIOT by me. Yes, idiot by me... I don't proclaim excellent driving skills, but i do know about road safety and when to revv the engine. Afterall, with so much horsepower under your feet, if you fail to use it wisely, the consequences are going to be beyond your wildest dream.

Singapore has seen the most rainfall these couple of days / weeks in 30 years. whoa, 30 freaking years. I should ask the 31 year olds & older... hey, was there also t-storms as bad as now when u were a kid?

I miss school days so badly, the days of being carefree and a show-off. yea, sitting around, doing nothing, being snobbish and listening to the rest of the green-eyed dwarfs sprouting nonsense at the tip of their tongues, which leave you wondering "are your fellow Singaporean counterparts so lame?"

Topic of lame : i guess we've all seen our fair share of lame asses. I have seen many on the road. p/s to drivers : alloe the indicator lights to switch lanes is FOC and comes stock with your car. please learn to use it. Don't think just because you're a bloody mercedes or a smashing new beemer would make me give way to you, cos dude, it's just so duh... for those who don't use, may God bless you while i pray for your road safety... cos 99% you would die crashing into something just cause you fail to indicate for that mere 5 seconds to switch lanes. it's also courtesy to do that... alloe, if you're so rich to buy a frigging merc or beemer, where the f*#k are your manners? I thought the rich normally should have some sort of decency and proper manners to get them to earn big money. Apparently, not so... in my sunny island-state.

American Idol 3 is on tv. Yay, the same ol' stuff actually. I find it funny when a guy actually commented that Idol is not ready for R & B, just pop stuff... alloe how do you define R & B ???... Ruben is making a soul album isn't it. or am i wrong... hmmm....

Don't get me wrong, i am no huge fan of pop, i don't mind pop. I do like rap, hip hop over pop. Today's charts are dominated by hip hop ... yea, so trends are changing. ten years ago, it will be unthinkable. Things change... in a short period of time... let alone ten years.

It's been some time since i've blogged. Yes, thanks for that gentle reminder, guys.

Well, basically i've been through 4 days of Chinese New Year. Fabulous, especially since i slept through most of it, and the other half jus walkin through half awake. I wondered what i really did.

Oh yea... the first day or night i should put it... i played cards with my uncles & friends till 2nd day's morning at 8am. It's ridiculous. But oh well... i spend the entire 2nd day in bed, sleeping.... zzzzzzzz

I've been lazy, i admit it. But life's tiring & boring... it's jus good ol' mundane monotonous work life, How exciting can it get?!? GOSSSSHHHHH !!!

Alright, i'll write more soon.... :P
Zhi Young came back for CNY, but due to my lack of ZzZzZZZZz and overwhelming response of relatives, we didn't manage to meet up. Oh well ... better luck next time.

I've been humming the song for a couple of days : With You by Jessica Simpson. yes, that bimbo. :P
it goes something like this in the chorus :
With you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a T-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you


Life has been great so far.

Went out with Zhi Young on 2nd Jan. A little background info : we made a pact in 1997 that by the time i hit 23, and i don't find the one, we will get married. Ok... going back, it seems we won't be, cos we're far too young, we laughed at that thought when we met. What were we thinking back then? Yea, at 17 / 18, 24 seems so old... but it came by in a flash. I realized him & me are pretty much still in diapers. I miss him & his humor, and his term of affection for me. It's hilarious.

I've been out with the flu bug this week. We've been waltzing together in bed for the whole of this week. it sucks... but at least don't have to work. Ooohhh, lazzyyyyy meeeeeee....

Today's friday. I'm going to find Kunal & family for dinner @ his place. Indian food! Let's pray my throat survives the harshness of the spice.

Mike my himbo buddy is supposed to be back yesterday. hahaha. but judging from that boy's mentality, i'm sure i won't see him till end of next week, even that is gonna be quite hard. Hmmmmmm *thinks*...

Guess what? I met up with a guy... that i talked abt on my 12th Dec Blog. yes ... himmmm... Ryan. Hahaha, it's amazing how we managed to sit & talk like we talk on comp. it's so nice to meet him again and to hug him. I realized i do miss him and his surfer dude attitude. totally hilarious. We had coffee. Cos i suppose that's all we have time for. It's nice, warm, and jus so nice to sit by him. And to watch him tell me how materialistic and a bitch and a crazy woman i am. He is now officially with a Mrs Ryan. I'm shocked, didn't expect it so soon. But feel really really xtremely happy for you, dude. I asked when we'll meet again. his reply : don't know.

I seem to have lost a lot of friends through marriage & immigration. I suppose that's the trend when the age comes around. Everyone with their Mrs. I guess it's time to let them go, we can't always sit around, laugh and lug our arms around each other like die-hard buddies. We've grown. Time to get our groove onto other stuff : family, & Mrs & possibly Kids.

I've seem to tell all my male buddies that i would need a pagekid or two. Hahaha, and they kept joking that they aren't planning kids. I smiled and said "yea right... wait till the missus said so."

I was questioned these days about my choice of leaving the guy i considered my First love( serious relationship). I believe there's no turning back once decisions are made. I am not regretting my move. So smile, brace yourself for new things ahead. Afterall, you must have made the decision because of factors, right? I hope he's taking to it well. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just felt it would be better for us in the long run. I need to fall & learn to take things on my own. I need to be me. Don't worry. I'll be fine. I hope you will take care of yourself, and prepare for the world ahead of you. I know you're stressed, i know you're upset. It's temporary. Someone better will come along. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me who i am today.

To a New Year Ahead.... CHEERS EVERYONE! 2003 has been a pretty rough year. Cheers to a good life and a smashing new year...

Christmas has passed. It's been a week.

I think Holidays is always the time u think about the past, the love, everything. I had a friend tell me about her misery with love. It's sad. It's a "i love you, but i can't be with you" thing. It's a feeling that's hard to deny of its existence. perhaps time can heal the pain, perhaps time can make everything alright, i've heard a lot abt time being the greatest worker of all. how long should the time be before a couple comes to terms with reality? I really wonder... I can't really console her. I don't know what to say, where to start. I realized that many ard me are lucky in love ...Yet some are jus hiding behind their cheerful disposition. Is it all just a facade? Why can't ppl be more real?

The New Year is approaching. I seem to have a 101 things on my mind. it's so messed up. Work is really taking a toll on me. sighhhh... some ppl have all the luck. where's mine?

Resolutions for Year 2004... to be announced soon... AKAN DATANG !

Ok... the weekend has passed.
Mr. Eugene Heng, congrats and finally having found Mrs. Eugene Heng.

Now, all my friends will start swarming me with wedding invites, wedding receps, dinners... oh goodness. Sigh... am i bound to stay on the shelf? Being a singleton has its perks : freedom, men, freedom, men, freedom, men. Of course, being together as a couple has its perks : cuddling, love, cuddling, love.

Spending time at weddings... i came to realize ... actually being attached or with someone commited is a pretty good thing. Especially when weddings are so close to Christmas. it's perhaps one of the most sweetest & heart warming ... you are in awe of the whole aspect of it. a couple in love... and the nice warmth of holiday season.

Well... no charming guys to report about. hahaha... i had fun with a bunch of cheesey grown ups, which is really rather funny, cute, amusing...
Mebbe crazy friends are like that....

It's Friday yet again. WooHoo! Words can't describe how happy i am or truly is. It's amazing.

I came back from Thailand on Monday. Since then, it's been hectic at work.
The weekend in Thailand ... is truly amazing. Met with Dennis, Sanford, Boat... and the rest of Pin's family. It's been a year since my brother left us (dennis, sanford & me).... sometimes when i think of him, i can't help but feel down & depressed. I had a fun weekend, it was fun,... lying around, and talking to my brothers, who's been there for me through it all. They're the best.

Anywayz... i'm actually now chatting with a guy i used to like, when i was in secondary school. This guy is megawatt charming. i'm going to be his kid's godmother. Everytime i think of him, it brings a smile onto my face. Our story of Fate brought us to know each other is so amazing... it always brings a twinkle to my face. The good ol' memories. We've known each other ... for 8 years... ok, if you count knowing names, it's about 6 years... and we've been out only ONCE. yes, we don't have the privilege like others to have coffee or tea or dinner... like friends do. We only managed to go out ONCE. Still... it's memorable. One of those dates you'll never forget.

U live ... and you love. Sometimes, being friends is good enough. You don't have to be lovers. For all you know, you guys break up and don't talk to each other. Be content with being friends.

Alright... it's Thursday. I know... a lil' weird for me to post my blog. I'm leaving for Thailand tomorrow for the weekend. It's been a year since my "brother" passed away. A lil' sad, a lil' nostalgia about the entire string of events. I wonder how things will be like when i meet the rest of my "brothers" this year...

I went to sing karaoke with Wendy & Pris on Monday. yea, we went wacky, sang out of tune. I sang out of tune on purpose. Before i hear your "YEAH RIGHT", i really did, my throat felt horrid & dry. We had a fantastic & cheap dinner, no less.

Tuesday : hmmm... what did i do? nothing... i work OT. :( sigh...

Wednesday : ... ohhhhh, hmmm... ahhhhh, nothing again.

I came to realize my work week is very boring. In fact, ultra boring.
Oh well... a weekend in Thailand shld be pretty exciting. i really wish so...
we'll see...
watch out for my post... come Tuesday...

I realized that this week has been a blast. Yea... !

Monday night : Equinox drinking away. Kinda interesting. Hated the martinis, the test tubes were ok, the wine & champagne were a lil' overwhelming. At least i didn't hurl. Funny how my own gfs could sleep in that environment. Then again, it's pretty nice being on top of everything else in Singapore.

Tuesday : still can't believe i slept the entire day, except Breakfast with friends. I slept through the day... yes the entire day. Unbelievable.

Wednesday : work, boring, work, boring. caught Master & Commander, very typical epic film. draggy at times, but still love it.

Thursday : hmmmm... what did i do? hmmmmmm.... oh yea, drank with leslie at brewerkz. the beer is cool, but i got tipsy. Hahaha, told u guys that it was a drinking week. Ok, let's have strawberry beer the next time round, alright?

Today's Friday. And i have NO plans. Anyone wants a hot date with me? *winkz* gawd, i think i am cute...

Ok... it's Monday Again... Oh dratz, i forgot to pay for my CC bills, as per usual. Shit ... ! :P Did i also mention today's a public holiday eve? woohoo... fun fun fun... mebbe go clubbin or drink

I had a funny weekend. Make that really really weird.
It was pouring on Friday night, yea,... there was somewhat a storm. Basically driving around with a friend, commenting how dumb certain idiots were, speeding and trying to kill themselves in the process. Next i know... this bike braked so hard it skidded across the street. Long story. next thing i know, i see ppl on the street. And i was so shocked, stunned, surprised. My friend got off the car to help the people out.

Saturday : hmmm... stoning mode ON. I stayed in to play .... yea, me play games ... xbox. it gets boring after a while... so i jus slept, woke up, ate, play games... and ended up at night at Holland V bitching with Jeannie... abt some guys sitting away from us who were scrutinizing every women they see walking by with lewd comments... I find it appalling how men can do that. it's so disgusting. And totally sucked. Do they expect women to say the same stuff about them, stuff like look at those tight asses and flabby asses and how they move? :P grow up, boys, grow up.

Sunday : spent time with mom & grandma... walkin around Orchard. Tiring! Of course, it helps that i bought some junk home... :)

Ok... so basically i sat down & think what have i done the entire week. and came to this conclusion : NOTHING. I really don't know what went on ... and jus surf through the week.

Friday night was fab. I had a great time with my gfs (wendy & pris) .. we really drank till me & pris were totally high & jumpy & giggly... the full werks of highness... hahaha, to the guy i pinched, SORRY. hahaha, u had yourself to blame for getting me redbull vodka. I totally hated that drink.

Had a blardy hangover on Sat morning... had to pick myself up to meet friends for test drive of cars... I frankly like the new colt. Yes all ur buggers out there who are now messaging me via icq or msn with the words "WTF" ... it's cute, it's me, it's lovely, it's me. I like it. so shuddup fools.

Saturday night... went to Movies in the Park with some friends. Lovely weather, thank goodness.. no mosquitos. It was jus plain romantic & lovely.
ON the whole ... weekend was lovely... it's all i can recall anywayz.
The next week's gonna be maniac... tons of work for the first two days. gotta face some MUSIC for the next three... awwww... shit ...

More details on my fun-filled weekends :) till then...

it's the season of singletons. Yes... the swingin singles. The topic on many's minds... recently. It's like the season & trend to be single. Back to kissing frogs... my friends !
The season seems to come hand in hand with the party season...: Christmas & New Year.

I've drawn out plans for the year end. Jus praying it would come earlier.
A lil' sick of doing mundane work all day, stuck in the air con environment, faced with machines.
I think i got a lil' way more bimbo nowadays... seemingly lost my mind along the way of work.
I need to like let go & jus head out to reboost my energy.

urghhhhh ! Bleahhhzzzz :P i need the weekends... and it's only Monday now..

I hardly blog everyday. It's just not me.

My friend was telling me abt my kissing frogs. isn't it true? Most girls wanna find a prince charming. Yet ... how do u define a prince charming? Drives a fancy beeemer, earning 5 digit paycheck, splurges on Gucci & Pradas for ya. It reminds me of a story of how the girl could spend 9 yrs and close to getting married ... to be with a guy ... jus for money. Only to have him find out abt it... and ended up trashing her ass. Oh well... :P

Love is simple, pure... of cos ...sometimes love just ain't enough. I appreciate your patience, and your ever so trusting love. I really do. And it makes me appreciate & cherish ya even more. we jus need more time to overcome hurdles, which we have discussed.

I'm an assertive individual (well KIND OF) ... i got what i want. I'm happy. I always look forward, never backwards. It's just stoopid to look back. And don't look back in anger. It ain't worth it.

My Himbo friend's gf is back in Singapore. I'm supposed to disappear :P ... eh dood, i will so get u for ditchin me. Btw, i am doin fine, in case you're wondering. I have plenty of gfs to sit beside me through my ordeal. A lil' history : himbo & me are college mates, so we sorta understand each other, & talk abt our peers... hahaha, but we're too brotherly. no chemistry.

In life... we kiss a lot of frogs... to get a prince charming. Well, i thought i found my prince, but now i'm back to kissing frogs. Sometimes, life is unexpected. U never know what you're gonna get. It's the amazing way things grow & change... that never ceases to make me stand and jus chill and look.

It's Sunday. Yes 12th October.
A week has passed. My life has gone through a whole emotional roller coaster, from anguish, to frustration, to pain, to happiness, joy, laughter, peace & love.

i had a long talk wif a friend on Friday night, sitting in the garden at my house. It was fun, cheers to my mate! thanks for lending me your shoulder to pour my sorrows, frustrations & anguish to. And thanks for that big ol' hug... it's amazing how i could actually talk to u, considering our v. superficial friendship (yes... we do not know each other v. well but there's a certain bubble of "i know ya for a long time" there). I figured what i want.... yet i could tell ya that the whole what i want crap turned sour on saturday. But alloe mate, Sorry i couldn't make it out to party with ya tho. SORRY!

Saturday went by ... quik... and fast. Finally got to watch Powerpuff girls cartoon. Yea, a SMS woke me up. Went for coffee with some friends in the afternoon. And u know what absolutely disgusting happen? I'm constantly getting harrassed by the wrong guy. And yet this guy told some other guy who dunno me that i am calling him constantly. LIKE DUH?!? Come on, i have way way better taste than that. Perhaps the guy should jus take a piss and take a good look of himself. so CMI! I'm so not the type who will like that kind of guy. I'm not a bimbo, neither am i stupid. So take a hike... !
i guess i'm blessed with a good bunch of gfs... we went for dinner and thereafter joined another grp of gfs for coffee (i think i am ODing on coffee sessions) and a long talk while sitting in my car talkin about marriage, life in general.

I went for a long drive in the middle of the night... read : long drive. It was semi-mindless, just talkin to a friend. a friend that i barely knew for two weeks... i mean i know this guy for a long time, but never had a chance to sit down and talk. As i drove on... it felt as tho nuttin needs to be said, just sit and watch the road and let our worries jus disappear along the vast length of roads. Jus wanna tell you i really enjoy your company. Don't worry about anything. If you need someone to listen, i'm here, since most of the time, you figure out half the things yourself. Heh heh :) i guess the love of cars brought us together. perhaps i could get one of those cars soon. hahaha, but then again with skills like mine, i better stay off the road... and let you drive me around instead. cheers!

Hope the next week turns out well. sigh.... i hate weekdays, i need a break from work, from everything in sight. i jus wanna chill the whole way through.

Ok, the timing on the Blog thing is fished up... so basically it's 7pm on a friday night. YEA! FRIDAY night...! the weekend is here... breathe baby... breathe! so what are the plans for the weekend?
prolly gonna jus stick ard ... and chill. OOOOooHHhh yeah.
I had coffee with a friend today... and it's jus the nice warm feelin of being back in skool, the ultimate bitch talk... abt guys , love life (or the lack thereof..) , and u know, the usual bimbo stuff. Heck yea, we're bimbos... but we dun take HIMBOs for bfs...doh